Rest in peace / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
MY CHILD
On the day God took you I thought that I would die I wondered where the time went? I asked alot of whys?? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort, I couldn't seem to hide, I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here, I thought "This can't be happening." As I wiped another tear. On the day that you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again, I wondered if the pain would end, But mostly, I wondered when?? It's hard to be without you, At times the days seem long, Sometimes I just sit crying, When there's really nothing wrong. I wish we'd had more time, Before your life was done. I hope your resting peacefully, My precious one
I love both of my children. I just have to love one in heaven and one on earth / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )Read >>
I love both of my children. I just have to love one in heaven and one on earth / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Tears and Cheers January, 2006
We will never stop loving our children. A thoughtful, gentle man named William Penn once wrote, "Those who love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill that which does not die." We loved our children yesterday, we love them today, and we will love them tomorrow. There is neither force nor foe that can ever remove the love we have for our children. They live within us and beyond this world, now and forever. This is not the way we wanted our lives or their lives to be because our children belong, not to the ages, but to us. In the end, sadly, they are not ours to keep. They will always be ours to remember, to honor, and to love.
We hurt so much because we love so much. It is our curse to live with the reality of deathS details. It is our Blessing to be given a glimpse of the infinite possibilities of perpetual Love. It is not a fair trade. Neither is this a bargain we sought to make. The Children that died too soon have broken our hearts while giving us the great gift of enlightenment. Where do we exchange that unwanted present for one minute with them when no refund line exists. We reach out to strangers, to family or friends to help us remember, to help us hope all is not lost. It helps. It is not a cure. This pitiful plight is not a wound that time heals.
Death cannot kill that which does not die.Our Children would no more leave us than we would stop loving them. Those that Love beyond the world cannot be separated by it.No one, no thing, not now, not ever can take away our love for our children. Our love defies death and taunts time while embracing and displaying its eternal nature. Sometimes Love travels an earthly path filled with tears and cheers inspired by the life of a child measured in moments or years. Our children live forever in the glorious, unending infinite light of our love, as we in theirs. That is our blessing. That is their gift and maybe they are waiting to see if we like it. Perhaps a cheer joined to the tear is what they need to hear. unknown Close
Encouragement for Sarah / Brooke Stone (Friend of Sarah )Read >>
Encouragement for Sarah / Brooke Stone (Friend of Sarah )
Sarah-
I feel as though I was supposed to meet you for a reason. I know that we really don't know much about each other at all, but I feel as though God has introduced us for a reason. I lost my dad in 1997 when I was 22 years old. I know the pain you feel. I know all the emotions that go with it and I know the struggle that you feel everyday to just sometimes get out of bed and put your feet on the ground. I know the pain of missing someone that was taken away from you too soon! I know that you know Emery, but what you don't know is that we had one before her that we lost. I am thankful that we have met and want you to know that I do understand and that anytime you need someone to listen who has been right where you are, I am here! Praise God for new found friendships!
And my heart smiled. / Sarah Ousley (SISTER)Read >>
And my heart smiled. / Sarah Ousley (SISTER)
You all will never know how much it means to me that you are taking the time out of your day to stop by my brothers page and leave your thoughts, prayers, words of encouragement, sentiments and poems. Not a day goes by that I don't miss the heck out of my brother...but lately, I miss more than just my brother. I miss my Mom.
Losing my brother was so hard but I never knew how hard it would be to watch my mom die inside. I lost a part of her when my brother died in March. My biggest fear is that I'll never see that part of her again. Sometimes I get angry at the world and at God for putting my Mom and Dad through something like this because it's not fair to me. It's such a selfish way to feel but I guess it's natural and normal. I've found myself at times wondering if I am not good enough to make them smile like they used to...but that's not fair to even think. Grief is such a hard thing to understand...Even harder than understanding it, is being on different levels of grief than your family at different times...because when one person may be feeling extreme saddness, another may be feeling anger and resent. It's a challenge everyday..but with love, prayers and more than anything, with the LORD JESUS CHRIST, we walk this path of life that we've been given. I try to think everyday..that I'm not being punished by losing my brother, I was being blessed by being given him, even if it wasn't as long as I thought I should have him. You can bet your bottom dollar that having known him has impacted my life more than anything. :) So--I try not to cry because I lost him, but to SMILE because I knew him.
Yesterday my Mom was flooded with joy from all the visitors on my brothers page. It made her smile...I miss her smile. Thanks for bring back a part of my mom that I miss almost as much as I miss my sweet brother.
Thank you all for stopping by. Continue to pray for us as we will do the same for you. :) Close
I feel so loved and blessed / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
You never know how many people love and pray for you until you lose a child. I am in awe of all the support and thoughts that I have recieved just in the last couple of days. My heart goes out to all of the mothers of angels and to their families. God bless you all. Please know that I will remember you all in my prayers. As you all know this is a hard month for my family but I know that with the prayers and support from all of the mothers on here that I will make it through. I miss my son so much but as one of my friends put it, and she has never lost a child and that was her first words to me is that she doesn't really know the pain, but anyway she said, " Would you want your son to be here and have to be tempted with addiction and have pain and sickness, or know that he was right with the Lord and know that you will see him again in heaven. The time that we are away from our loved ones is long to us but just a short while for them. I am so thankful that I know that my son is in heaven and it there for eternity and will never be sick, in pain, worried, tempted or sad for eternity. God bless all of us and we will get through this together. Helen Close
I am here... Deep within your heart that yearns. I am here... I'm the flame that softly burns and lights your way; in the darkness of the night I will be your shining light... I am here...
I am here... In the misty morning dew. I am here... Standing closely beside you. I'll hold your hand... Let you feel a quiet peace, I will be your sweet release. I am here...
I am here... In a haunting melody... I am here... I will be that memory that gives you strength, when days are long You'll carry on... I am here...
I am here... As long as you do not forget, I am here... In your heart, I know, and yet... It's here I'll stay, I'll never go, We both will know... That I am here...
~ Author Unknown ~
Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted (Mat 5:4)
Family, My thoughts and prayers are with you always. Jeri
thoughts and prayers. / DEBBIE BULGIN (THROUGH OUR PRECIOUS ANGELS ) TO THE FAMILY OF SHADRICK, KEEPING YOU AL IN MY PRAYERS AND HOPE YOU FIND COMFORT KNOWING THAT WE WILL ALL REUNITE IN GOD'S KINGDOM WITH OUR PRECIOUS ANGELS WHO WE WILL FOREVER MISS AND LOVE. HUGS.Close
"Thinking Of You" / Johnette Moninger (New Friend )Read >>
"Thinking Of You" / Johnette Moninger (New Friend )
How blessed I am / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shad )
I have been reading some of the tributes to our angel Shad and it is such a blessing to know that people are so kind and thoughtful. Shad you are an angel now and that is such a comfort for a mother to know. Your sister got a not from an angel mom and her angel is Sarah Faith. Her sister just got her life back on track and has Jesus in her life. I want you to be with her and help her to be strong and trust God just like you did. Your life is such a blessing and a witness to all the world, that makes me so proud. I love you son and will see when I get there. Momma Close
I have read your brothers story and I can't help but to cry.. I too lost my brother, my best friend, my life... Its so terrible the suffering, I relive what happened to Dante everyday of my life, the days seem longer without him and life isn't the same. Dante is my only sibling, now I say to my self what am I to do? how can I live knowing that my brother is not, its just not fair. My brothers passing was a complete shock to us all... now I live with half of my heart and soul, I watch our mom suffer, and Dante's daughter, let alone dying inside. So please know that I'm here to talk to you, eventhough we have never met, we are conected through the same pain and loss. I will pray for you and Shad, thinking of you today!
With love, Iris sister to angel hero Dante Perales
REMEMBERING SHAD I UNDERSTAND HOW HARD THIS MONTH WILL BE I TOO HAVE ANGELS THAT PASSED THID MONTH I WILL REMEMBER SHAD IN MY PRAYERS AND WILL ASK THAT YOUS FIND THE STRENGH TO GET THROUGH THIS MONTH GOD BLESS LOVE AND BLESSINGS LISA XX
Precious Shad and his family / Donna Robert Mom To Angie-Robert (Someone who cares )Read >>
Precious Shad and his family / Donna Robert Mom To Angie-Robert (Someone who cares )
My deepest sympathy to all the family of Shad. This site is just beautiful, and the words are so touching. I had tears reading some of the stuff.
I can't believe that Savanna actually sat beside her Daddy and read him a story. Than realized that he had slipped away. What a beautiful way to say good bye to the mnost precious man in her life. At six years of age that is just to awesome. I hope she carries that memories with her forever.
Parents are not suppose to watch their children die, the circle of life should never be broken. For Shad's sister, I understand your hurt and pain your writing was just so perfect. I see how my sons had to deal with the loss of their sister. Tiffany, Savanna, Aiden, and Robbie always remember that your Daddy and husband is always near you and through you guys Shad will continue to live, as you are part of him and many things you do in life will someway relate to him.
I know what you mean when you claim you didn't know how to handle the pain. There is no explaining it. The hurt is so deep that it hurts so much you don't know what to do to make it go away.
My daughter died at twenty four years of age, in a tragic car accident. She died on impact they say, I sure hope so. She left behind a son who turned three years old, three weeks after her passing. I am raising my grandson.
Her death has been the hardest ting I have ever gone through. I hate it...I would give anything to have her back. Love hurts so much!
I will keep your family in my prayers and if you ever need someone to talk to you can e-mail me at polopool@yahoo.ca
Bless you all Donna Robert Mom to angie-robert Close
I lost my son April 1st 2005, I feel your saddness / Lizz Brandons Mom (vistor to site )Read >>
I lost my son April 1st 2005, I feel your saddness / Lizz Brandons Mom (vistor to site )
To Shad's Mom I stopped by as I often do to different sites to remind myself that there are other mom's like me. I lost my first born Brandon Jewett on April 1st 2005 and there are days when I am scared of the pain, I also lay in bed in the morning and wish that I didn't have to get up. I have lots of those days, but there are days when I feel his love so strongly and I can almost hear him telling me to live to love and laugh with his brothers and friends make memories with them as I made with him. I hope that you have days like that to, I will think of you on the 31st and hope that a smile forms on your lips at a memory of Shad. Peace to you and your family always. Lizz Close
March is a hard month for us all / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shad )
I was thinking last night about you and what you and Tiffany were going through in March 2005 worrying about Robbie coming early. LIttle did we know that it would happen for a reason. Little did we know that God knew the whole picture. Shad be with Tiffany this month not only is she not feeling good but she misses you so much. I am all alone right now and am missing you and your dad is in Colorado and I miss him so much You keep your spirit with Tiffany and the boys always and also with Savanna. You stay with your Dad until he come safely home to me. I love you son and will See you when I get there. Momma Close
I love you so much is the Title. Here are the words. Daddy I love you so much I just can't help it I love you so I just can't help it I I love you so much your the best Daddy Daddy I love you so much.
I am at Dee's house and I think of you all the time. I am trying to do well in school. Please be with me and help me to do the right things in my life. This is the first song that I have ever written and I made you a snow flake that I am going to leave at Dee's house so she can put it in my scrapebook. I also found the little green bible that you gave me the day that I was born and Dee is going to put it with all the stuff that she has for me to keep when I grow up. I miss you so much Daddy. I love you and wish that you were here. I will do my best to be good and come to heaven when I die to see you. I love you. Savanna
March 4th 2005 / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shad )
Today is the day that started the month that we had to endure. Today is the day that Tiffany went into the hospital in preterm labor with Charles Robert Hubbard Vickers. We were so scared because he was only 33 or 34 weeks I don't remember exactly. Shad and Tiffany were in Prestonsburg in the hospital there and no one would believe that she was in as much pain as she was except for Shad he believed her. I remember that me and Garry went to Prestonsburg to see her and Shad would not leave her at all. He was so much in love with her and knew that it was his responsibility to take care of her.. I remember that Shad did not really feel very good but he tried to sleep on a little couch thing right at Tiffany's side. She did not feel very well either. She was in alot of pain. We just wanted Robbie to not come this early. Little did we know that the Lord knew what was going to happen and why. Please pray for us the next few week, as the memory of the death of my son flood my mind. Thank you for all the love and support from all of you that read this. I love you son and will see you when I get there. Momma Close
I talked to your dad / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
I talked to your Dad tonight and he is fine. I miss him alot. I got on My space and saw that Tiffany had been on there. I hope that she is feeling ok. I think I am going to go see the boys Sunday night. I miss them so much. I love them and can't wait to see them. I love you and will see you when I get there Momma Close
Garry just left / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Shad be with your Dad. He just left to be gone for a couple of weeks. I am so scared. Please be with him and help him be safe. Be with Tiffany today. She is still in the hospital and they really don't know what is wrong. I love you and will see you when I get there. Love you Momma Close
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TO THE FAMILY OF SHADRICK, KEEPING YOU AL IN MY PRAYERS AND HOPE YOU FIND COMFORT KNOWING THAT WE WILL ALL REUNITE IN GOD'S KINGDOM WITH OUR PRECIOUS ANGELS WHO WE WILL FOREVER MISS AND LOVE. HUGS. 
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