Thinking of you Shadrick and your family  / Rosemary Sis Of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful loved one.
I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Rosemary 
sis of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans
xoxo

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April 1 2007  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Two years ago today we were sitting in the funeral home trying to decide about the funeral time and pick out a casket for you to be placed in.  It was very hard for me Shad to have to think that I would never feel your strong arms around me again in this life.  My heart was so broken and I did not know what to do.  It is not natural to give your child back to God.  I was suppose to go first.  I sometimes just don't understand and right now is one of those times.  All the things that you did in your life were all gone and now I wish that you were here to do something to make my stomach hurt.  Now it hurts and so does my heart because now I know that you will never do that again.  I am very sad now and do miss you so much.  I am just want to get in my car and drive and not stop until the end of time.  I made you a butterfly cake for your Angel Day and Sarah colored me a butterfly picture.  So many people have lite candles for you and that is so comforting to me.  I know that so many people think of us everyday and pray for us also.  I know that I could now make it without that.  I long to hear you say Momma to me so many times and I know that someday you will.  Sometimes I get so angry because people go on with their lives and laugh and have fun and I  have to know that sometimes it seems so unfair.  When that part of me died with you I guess that I changed and Sarah says that I am not the same but how can I be.  I lost part of my life when I lost you and that part will not ever return.  Sometimes when people say how are you doing I just want to scream and say that I am empty and numb.  I want to say How do you  think I am I lost my son and I will never be the same.  I try hard to put on a happy face but sometimes you just can't do that.  I know that someday I will not be as sad as I am right now and I know that I will be able to have real fun without pretending.  I know that will happen someday, but until it does I hope that all of my family and all of my friends will understand that the pain that I have is different than anyone elses and that it may take me longer to get that back.  Just stay with me and help me to get there.   I love you and will see you when I get there.  Momma


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Does Time Really Heal?  / Jenny Tavendale Mum To Ross

I am thinking of you Shad
and your very special family who loved you so much and find myself asking 
Does time really heal?

I pray for you and for me
that perhaps one day it will get easier
but for now I send my love and hope
that you can let them know they are not alone
You Shad are walking by their sides

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An Easter wish  / Rosemary Sis Of ^j^ Alvin Cremeans

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TO THE PARENTS OF SHAD. MY HEART ACHES FOR YOU. HUGS AND PRAYERS.  / FAMILY OF RICK BULGIN (ANGEL FRIEND )
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THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR LOVING FAMILY. HUGS AND PRAYERS.  / DEBBIE BULGIN (ANGEL FRIEND )
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Thinking of you  / Jo-Ann~mom Of Angel~Lauren Pacenta (Another broken hearted mom )
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thinking of you  / Tamara(Hunters Mom) Vongphrachanh (mom to an angel )
Shadrick you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Close

Angel Day  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Thank you so much for thinking of me.and my family today. It is Shad's Angel Day and a celebration of his new life. God bless everyone of the people that think and pray for us. Thank you all for that. Today is a sad day for losing Shad but what a gain for heaven, don't you all agree that a hug from that big guy was more than anything that anyone could ever imagine. God bless our family.


Savanna,Seth,Aiden,Sydney and Robbie

Tiffany, Savanna, Aiden and Robbie Shad's precious family


Momma and Daddy

Shawn and Sarah


Sarah and her Daddy

We love you son and wish you a wonderful Angel Day. Thank you for 28 wonderful years. Always know that we love you and miss you very much, and always watch out after your babies. Love you Momma, Daddy. Sarah, Shawn, Tiffany, Savanna, Seth, Aiden , Sydney and Robbie




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March 31 2007 Today is Shad's Angel Day  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Happy Angel Day my sweet baby boy.  I miss you so much but today as we celebrate the day that you went to meet your Savoir and Lord and to be with your Papa I want you to me near to all of us.  Be near Tiffany and the boys and to Savanna and Sarah and her family.  Be close somehow to me and Dad.   Today my heart is sad and happy at the same time.  I will be Thanking God for taking you at a time that he won another battle with the Devil because I know that Satan wanted you really bad but guess what he did not get you.  You are my sonshine and I will love and miss you everyday that I breath and My heart will have a place in it for you for ever.  I love you and will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

march 28-30  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )

These days like all of the day at the Central Baptist Hospital were long and hard.  I love you so much and I know that the Lord would always know what was best for you.  The people that were around us through these days were wonderful and were very uplifting.  They were very supportive.  The prayers were coming from all over the world, and we did feel them.  I wanted to just go into your room and just stay by your side and make sure that you were not alone.  These days are very hard for me and I miss you so much.  I know that you are where you want to be and that you will never have anymore pain or sickness.  You are my first born baby and I will alway feel you with me.  I wish that I could have a closer encounter with your presence.  I think sometimes that is not something that will happen.  I know that you will be with Daddy on Easter and also on your Angel Day tomorrow.  Savanna is here and we are going to have a celebration of your day that you went to be with your eternal family and with all the people that you missed for so long.  Know that I love you and miss you very much and that I will see you when I get there.  Momma

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Happy Easter Shadrick~  / Sue~ Mom To Ashley Trapp

Easter Morn

Easter morn with lilies fair

Fills the church with perfumes rare,

As their clouds of incense rise,

Sweetest offerings to the skies.

Stately lilies pure and white

Flooding darkness with their light,

Bloom and sorrow drifts away,

On this holy hallow'd day.

Easter Lilies bending low

in the golden afterglow,

Bear a message from the sod

To the heavenly towers of God

By Louise Lewin Matthews

God Bless Your Family & Friends,
Sue, Ashley’s Mom

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March 27 2007  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Today was a weird kind of day.  Yesterday evening I cried for you and I could not help it.  It was though I could just reach up in the shy and get you and take you home with me.   Sometimes I just don't think that I can stand it to not ever see you again.  I say things that sound really good about how that you are with the Lord and that I will never have to worry about you ever again.  I don't worry about you being on earth but I do worry about not ever getting to see you again.  That makes me as your Momma a lot sad.  I want to see you again and again over and over againl and I know that is not going to happenl  I don't even know what to say because people wh0 have not lost a child do not even have a clue how that I feel  I do love you and will write you when I get home tomorrowl  'we will have a celebreation of hour angel day and I will try not to cryl  I love you and will see you when I get  there.  Momma Close

Defining a Miracle  / Sarah Ousley (sister)
Define Miracle

In a couple of days we will be celebrating the 2nd anniversary of my brothers death. Celebrating...hmmm that's an odd way to put it, you say? Well, not really.

Over the past two years I have grown and I have learned a lot. My biggest lesson is what my headline reads: The Lord can work miracles, but sometimes OUR idea of what a miracle is, is different. Does that make sense to you?

I'll elaborate, of course, that's why blogging is so informative, right?

When my brother was sick we kept having people say "Have faith, hold out for a miracle..." That was such a refreshing thing to hear at the time...really.

Then after he died we wondered...what happen to our miracle?

Well, in the past two years, I have discovered that my idea of a miracle and God's idea of a miracle may be two seperate things, but yet are one. Even more confusing, right? Not really.

See...My miracle would have been that my brother would have opened his eyes, sat up and walked out of that hospital on March 31st, instead--he took his last breath that day and instead of walking out of the hospital with me--he walked out in the arms of Jesus. My miracle...God's miracle. Different.

My brother had many struggles in his life *drugs, etc.* but at the time of his passing, he was 100% clean and was living his life dedicated to the Lord and his family. Maybe the miracle was that God took my brother home when all was right in his heart. So...really our miracles, yet different...are the same.

I am so glad that this year I feel like celebrating. Last year was so hard and the entire month I was nervous and scared and anxious about his angel day approaching..but this year, I feel like celebrating. I feel like smiling because I'm so proud of my brother...I'm so envious of him for being in such a wonderful place...I'm so thankful that I dont have to worry about him anymore...I'm so thankful that he was a part of my life for as long as he was.

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Thinking of you  / Dessa Smith (friend)
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March 26, 2007  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )

Well today this time two years ago we were just praying and waiting to see if you would wake up.  Someone told us that they had seen people with pancreatitis go into this coma and come out of it get better and go home.  I think that God knew that if he did not get you that he may miss you.  I know that you would not have wanted to have to lay in a bed for the rest of your life if that was all that was left.  You were always a very active man and I think that if you could not have been in an active state that you would have been very unhappy.  I do miss you with every thing in me, but I do know that I will see you when I get there.  I want you to be with me and Dad while we are in Dallas and help us to make the right decisions.  I love you and will see you when I get there.   Momma

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jUST THINKING OF YOU  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )

I AM JUST GETTING Back from dinner in Dallas Tx and you are on my mind and I miss you so much.  I want you to know that every thing that you did growing up that I forgive you and that you are my sonshine and that I wish that you were her to raise your children.  I love you and now I am going to bed.. I love you and miss you more that you will ever know.. Until we meet again  Love you Momma

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March 25th 2007  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Today I am just think of you because when I see things that you didi not see it makes me know that now you have the greatest view of all.  Two years ago you were just hanging in there and I think today or maybe it was tomorrow I remember telling you that if you needed to go home to heaven that it was ok.  I know that you were a fighter and that is fine but now look where you are.  I the safest place ever.  The place that we all fight to get to and you did it so well.  I am so proud to say that when I talk of your eternal life that it is all well with the Lord.  I do miss you so much but now I can talk of you and be happy for you.  When things happen to Tiffany or one of your children I know that you are watching over them in a special way..  How good is our God.   I would say that you know have it made in the shade as I would say to you so many times in your life.  I know that you always had to learn things the hard way.  I think that heaven is the best lesson you ever learned.. Dad and I are in Texas and I think of you everything and everywhere we go.   Seth is sick so you be with him and Sarah.  Sydney and Shawn also.. I know that you already know that Shawn accepted christ the night of the play where we all had the blessing of seeing you lift your hands to the Lord.  That was something that I am so thankful for.  You are such a blessing to me and all of the family.  I miss you and will see you when I get there.  I love you Momma Close

March 24 2007  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Not much to remember this morning just that there were a lot of people to see us and alot of decisions to be made. Tiffany and Robbie were staying in a motel so that she could rest.  I was in a haze because momma's just know things that others don't and I just had this feeling.  We were holding on to straws with the information that we were getting and that was all we could do.  You were in God's hands and only he knew what would happen from here.  I am feeling peace again this morning knowing that you are in a world that you will eternally be safe and that is what a mother needs to feel.  I love you and will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

Remembering Shad  / Jenny Tavendale Mum To Ross

Thinking of you Shad
and your special family
God Blessxx

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