Happy Halloween  / Dessa Smith (Friend)
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Seth is 5 today  / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shadrick )
How time goes by so fast.  Shad, Seth still takes about you all the time.  He is into wrestling now and he knows that you liked it so that makes him very happy.  Yesterday we went to the mall and we were shopping at Macy's and they had a shirt that had a small skateboard with it.  Seth go so excited,  so I bought him one.  He told me that I was the best Dee in the world.  Shad he is growing up so fast and you would just love the way that he is doing.  He loves all the things that you loved when you were a little boy.  Spiderman, Superman, wrestling, sports and eating.  He reminds me of you so much.  Sarah is going to have his party and Savanna, Aiden and Robbie are coming.  I am trying to spend more time with the boys and it makes me so happy.  Savanna is doing better in school.  Wednesday she starts counseling and I pray that it will help her to deal with lossing you.  He is just having some threats of wanting to die and come and be with you.  I understand that but at the same time it scares me.  Just be with her and keep her safe.  Dad and I are still wanting to sell the house but it seems that people just aren't buying right now.  I am just trying to have a good feeling about it and just let the Lord take care of it..  I miss you so much and think of you everyday and wish so much that you were here and then I remember that you are in the best place in the world and that you are always going to be safe.  I will see you when I get there.   Momma Close

I miss you so much  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Savanna is here and she is so great.  I feel like you are right here with me when I have your children around.  I wish that you would come to me in your own special way.  I miss your hugs and the conversations that we use to have.  I talked to Tiffany today and she got a job at Reno's.  Be close to her Shad she misses you so much and loves you to the intermost part of her soul and always will.  She loves to work and get out of the house.  Please stay very close to her.  I love you Momma Close

Hey baby today is Sydney's birthday  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
I am so excited today.  I am getting the boys and Savanna today.  I can't wait.  We are going to Seth's soccer game in the morning and then to Sydney's birthday tomorrow evening.  I wish you were here but I know that you will be here in spirit.  I always start to miss you so much at this time of the year.  You and I always loved the fall and winter seasons.  I hope that you will be here with me close for the next few months.  I love you and miss you so much.  I will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

Sept 18th is my birthday and I am missing you so much  / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shadrick )
Is it crazy that I miss you so on my birthday.  I thought of you and could not sleep on Thursday and I had to go into work late.  I hope that you will come to me as close as you can on the 18th.  I wish that you come just come and that I could see you and talk to you for my birthday.  That would be so awesome.  I am just so worried about selling our house.  We have not even had one bite and that scares me. I need to get rid of this place because it makes my hip and back hurt to climb all of the stairs in this place.  Shad please help me to be patient and tell God that all I want is for a family to come and buy this place that can have as much fun as we did in here and to make the memories as we did.  I love you and miss you more that I can bear sometimes.  Please be near me.  I will see you when I get there. Momma Close

I love you  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shadrick )
I am so sad tonight.  The friend of mine that made your and Tiffany's  wedding cake passed away.  Please tell her that I love her.  She left behind 3 girls and her husband.  It makes me so sad.  She was a great person.  I know that you remember her.  I miss you so much and wish that you could just talk to me sometime in my dreams.  Everyday that I am outside I see a butterfly and well you know that I think of you.  The house is for sell and I need to know that you are there to send the right person to buy the house because that we made so many memories there with you and Bonnie and Savanna and also Tiffany and Aiden.  I know that somewhere out there, there is some family like ours that will come and want to buy it.  Savanna got on the Academic team in her grade.  I am so proud of her.  I told her that you were proud of her and I know that you are.  Seth misses you so much.  He has put pictures of you beside of his bed.  He is worried that he doesn't remember what you look like and that makes him sad.  Please be with him.  He is so sensitive you know.  I love you so much.  I got a knew tattoo and it is so beautiful.  Joe Moore, Robbie's brother,  did it and it is great.  I know that you can''t believe that I got a tattoo.  I now have two.  Yes your mother has two tattoos and if you were still alive I would let you put more on me.  I regret so much not letting you put my first one on me for my 50th birthday.  I feel like this one that Joe did is so special to me and makes me feel like you are truly with me.  I love you son and will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

Butterflies / Helen Vickers (mother of Shadrick )
I just need to tell you that I have seen so many butterflies lately.  Seth learned how to ride his bike without training wheels and it seemed that you were there watching him.  There was a yellow butterfly that stayed in front of the front porch the entire time he was riding.  Oh and also Seth is having a terrible time missing you and worries that he can't remember what you looked like.  It makes him so sad.  Please stay close to him and help him to know that you are near to him.  Savanna started 3 grade yesterday.  Please stay near her and help her to stay focused.  Do you remember when your dad use to tell you to STAY FOCUSED. I found the sign that he made for either you or himself I don't remember but I know that he always wanted both you and Sarah to stay focused.  Dad and I are getting ready to sell the house here on Royalty Dr.  Please put in a good word to whoever that we can sell it fast.  We need to get out of this big house and get one that we can take care of and that is not as financially hard.  I love you son and I wish that you would come to me in a spirit that I can see or hear you.  I love you and will see you when I get there.  Please also be with your Dad he is so unhappy with his job and is worried about our finances and miss you so much that he is having a very hard time.  You know that he doesn't talk about stuff like he should and sometimes I worry about him so much.  I love you my butterfly.  I see you everyday in all colors.  Until later Momma Close

I am so tired today  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shadrick )
I got up yesterday morning at 7 and knew that I did not have to work until Thursday night ( which is tonight)  Sarah and I went to Lexington and on our way back around 7pm My cell phone rang and it was the hospital, they said are you coming to work and I said no I work tomorrow night and she said no you work tonight so long story short I had to go to work and now it is 10.30 am and I am still up and will still be up until tonight.  Savanna is having a hard time this week and I don't know what to do with her.  She is talking back so bad that I can't take it.  She cries for you and I know that she truly miss you so bad but I also know that she uses that to get her way.  She is sitting in the Den right now for 15 min then I will go and talk to her.  Please be with her and help her to know what to do with herself.  She lives in such an unstable enviroment that she doesn't know how to act.  There is no one to teach her there and all she gets is what she gets here and that is hopefully enough.  I love her so much and I want to be the one that she remembers taught her how to behave.  Please be with me and help me to have the patience to with stand her actions and to help her to know how to handle herself.  I love you and know that you will be with her.. I will do my best for you.   I love you son and will see you when I get there.. Momma Close

Today I miss you so  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
Go rest high on that mountain son your work on earth is done go to heaven shouting love for the father and the son.  I love you so much and wish you were here I am so worried about your boys.  I don't feel like I know them at all.  I love them so much but so much separates us.  They are the greatest kids and I loved having them here.  I miss them and wish that I could see them so much more.  I think of you being with me always in the distant stars and I wish that I could see you smile a breath away  is where you are.. I wish that we could lay on the driveway and watch the stars together like we did before.  We had a bond of a mother and son and I so greatful for that and I will never have the void gone.  I wish that I could fly to were you are and be able to see you for a while just to know that you are there.  I love you and miss you so.  Your sister and I have such a bond and God knows if something were to happen to her or your Dad I don't know what I would do.  I love the three of you more that life.  I don't understand why that you had to leave so soon.  I think of you everyday and sometimes wonder what you would be doing if you were here.  I know that you would be with Tiffany, Robbie, Aiden and Savanna.  You would be doing what you could to make all of them happy.  It is so unfair sometimes to think that they have to miss your wonderful loving heart.  You were one special person son and you always made me proud.  I love you for everything you were to me and a million times more.  I hope that I will see you someday.  Sometimes I feel that I don't have a prayer to get there but I know what I have to do to get there.  I love you so and I will do all that I can to get there.  Love you Momma Close

In Your Brothers Honor  / Dottie Angel Mom To Matthew Hagan ^i^ (Visitor)
I am so sorry for your loss. It is almost 5 years now since my son was murdered. I know your heart ache. i lost my sister also at the age of 15 to a murderer, her boyfriend, in 1985. and my father 3 years before that. I know how you feel. More so than most people. The greif is a journey we have to walk, but we don't have to walk it alone. Our Angels are with us always. and God is always ready to listen to a broken heart. Always keep your faith, and you will seee your brother again one day.

We always wish we were there, able to hold them and love them in our arms again. One day we will.
We will always have a tear ready to fall, but God is always there, ready to wipe it away for us.Never forgeet your love, because your brother will never forget you either. Love to you.

Mattsmomma
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I miss you so  / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shadrick )
I miss you so much.  I just wanted to say Hi and I love you.  I keep thinking that you will show up and give me a big hug.  I know that is not going to happen but it would make me so happy..  Please be with us as we sell this house which holds so many memories of you with our family.  I will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

4th of July  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shadrick )
Hey baby we missed you so much last night.  Me, Dad, Sarah, Shawn, Seth, Sydney, Savanna, Uncle Bow, Aunt Lajeana, Rachel, Steve (Rachel's boyfriend) and Casey Ousley were all here to celebrate with us.  We sent you a balloon of the flag and then Savanna sang the Star-Spangled Banner for all of us. We had  dinner and also watched the fireworks at Georgia's and Doug's house.  It is always hard for me on the 4th because you and I loved it so much.  I did fine only just thought of you all day long.  Rachel and her boyfriend are so happy and in love.  Savanna said to tell you hi and that she loves you very much and wishes that you were here.  She is doing so great.  You would be so proud of her because she is growing into a beautiful young lady.  I always tell her to do what she knows would make you proud.  She makes me and Dad so happy when she is here.  I feel like you are so close when I hold her in my arms and yes we still do that all the time.  I love you and will see you when I get there. Momma 
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Happy 4th  / Dessa Smith (friend)
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Thinking of Shadrick and his dear loving Family  / Teri Drebit (Jaime's Mom)

To The Family Of Shadrick,

I must tell you how sorry I am for your loss.  When I read your story about Shad, I was so moved and brought to tears.  I felt like I was there with you as I was reading about him.  In so many ways it reminds me of some things that happened with my daughter Jaime whom we lost on March 26, 2005, the worst day of my entire life.  I just want you to know how much you touched my heart and your Family is in my thoughts and prayers.

God Bless,
Teri Drebit
(Jaime Leigh Drebit's Mom)

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I miss you so  / Helen Vickers (mother of shadrick )
Tonight at work I had a patient that was 34 weeks pregnant and she came in with abdominal pain.  The doctor told me to do some labs including amylace and lipase and she ended up having Pancreatitis.  It made me so scared for her.  I called the doctor and we sent her to Central Baptist Hospital to labor hall.  It made me think of you and how sick you were when I got you to the hospital.  I miss you so much and sometimes I think that there could have been something else that we could have done to help you to have survived and still been here with your babies.  I know that you are in such a better place but I still wish you were here.  I have such an empty feeling sometimes that my heart aches for you.  I still am so prayful that we sell our house and get to but the new one and that we can move and have a smaller place to live.   I love you and miss you so and will see you when I get there. Momma Close

Happy Father's Day Son  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shadrick )
Just wanted to wish you a Happy Father's Day and tell you that I love you very much.  Your Dad has been a little sad today.. I guess that he is thinking of you.  Also we took Savanna home and that always makes us sad.   I know that she will be fine and all but we still miss her so when she is gone.  She brings so much of you here,  also with the boys being here this week also that made things so great.  I hope that you and Daddy are spending your fathers day together and with your Heavenly Father.  Dad, Sarah and I miss you so much.  I hope that you will stay near to us.  Love you and will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

Father's Day  / Rosemary Sis Of Alvin Cremeans

Wishing Shadrick and his father a peaceful Father's Day.
Love to all of the family.
Rosemary sis of Alvin Cremeans
xoxo

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Missing you a bunch  / Helen Vickers (mother of Shad )
I was driving home yesterday from taking the boys home and I was thinking of the time that we were in the hospital and it makes me so sad that I feel like my heart is going to break.  You were so sick and I think that you knew that you were not going to make it.  Sometimes I think that you just felt that your time was short.. I don't know that to be for sure but I just know that the last days with you at EMRMC was the best week for me with you.  I  saw you pray and you and I had such a special time together and I am so thankful for that.  I love you son and miss you so much.  My heart aches sometimes till I think that  I can't even breath.  I wish that you could come down and see me and that I could tell you that you were the best son in the world.  I know that I am so blessed to have your children to hold on to and for that I am thankful.  I hope that you will always know that I love you and that I miss you forever.  I will see you when I get there.  Momma Close

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY  / Debbie Wengert Kevin's Mom

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Robbie and Aiden  / Helen Vickers (Mother of Shadrick )
Now Robbie and Aiden are both in the hospital.  They are ok.  They both had  virus and they also checked Aiden for diabetes and he did not have it.  He is fine and hopefully they will get to go home today.  I am going to get both of them on Sunday and keep them for a few days.  I can't wait to see them.  I miss you son and hope that you are having a wonderful heaven day.   I will see you when I get there. Momma Close